Research: Religion & Spirituality, Part 1

My Research on Religion & Spirituality

PREFACE
This is still a WIP, it may end but that is not THE END.

I am writing this out because I wanted to explain to those who have condemned me for leaving the Church. Condemned may be a strong word, but I have been called crazy by just about everyone that I know, and love. I still love them, despite this rather harsh judgment. What I have set out to do is explain why I have left the Church and once that is done I will elaborate more about what my research of religion has revealed. My goal here is to re-examine the differences between Religion and Spirituality as well as provide historical evidence that led me to believe as I do now.

Also, I have verified that all of the scriptures I reference in this document have been verified with www.youversion.com to ensure that I am not taking anything out of context. Everything I reference is there for the viewing in whatever Bible you read, though some versions differ slightly. Most of the scripture used comes from KJV unless it was difficult to understand in which case I chose NIV for a more easily digestible version.

Let me make clear that I am not writing this as an attack on anyone. If what I say upsets you please keep in mind this quote:

"If you want to make someone angry, tell him a lie; if you want to make him furious, tell him the truth. All truth passes through three stages. First, it is ridiculed, second it is violently opposed, and third, it is accepted as self-evident". - A. Schopenhauer Philosopher"

I am searching for the truth, always, and I do not trust any source that claims to be the truth unless it is both credible and legitimate. Credibility is established through collaborating and corroborating information. Legitimacy is established through historical research as well as rational & analytical processing. If you feel that I am missing the truth below please point it out to me and I will re-evaluate anything that I have said in this article.

Section 1: My back story

Let me begin by saying that religion is NOT the same as spirituality. You can have one without the other, and more often than not that's how you'll have it.

I began going to church in the 3rd grade (Roughly 7-8 years old), and being somewhat mature for my age I picked things up very quickly. From everything I had learned in church, I "accepted Jesus Christ into my heart" at age 9 and was shortly after baptized.

I developed a spiritual connection to God, which seemed very different from what other people described theirs being like. I felt God speaking to me all of the time, explaining things that I was struggling to understand. Epiphany after epiphany it felt like, spurring me forward into deeper thinking, a deeper relationship, and spawning thousands of questions that no one else seemed to be asking. Most of them were revealed to me shortly after I asked them through inspired words all around me. Whether it was what a friend said, or a poster I saw, or a song, the answers were popping out at me. It was incredible. What was unusual about it was that it felt like the knowledge was simply downloaded to my heart through a complex chain of emotional responses; these are emotions that have no name and almost seem like their sole purpose is to serve as an informational conduit to our mind.

Any-who, I began getting more involved in church when I hit the youth group, which packed some theology into the sermons. I quickly became a bible literalist, with a blind faith that I best describe as being a "Super Christian" as there is no swaying these types from their beliefs. I always had a problem with the whole converting others, and I never knew where it stemmed from, but it just seemed unfair in some way.

I knew nothing of what others believed, nor how deep those beliefs were, but I was expected to somehow convince them that my beliefs were superior? And the whole tactic of informing them they were going to hell if they didn't convert was NOT something I personally believed in. I didn't let that bother me, though, because I was more about the research than some divine call to convert everyone I came into contact with. I think there was always some doubt in my mind about my beliefs, which is why I wanted to research it so thoroughly as to give myself the proof necessary to dispel those doubts.

I wanted to know answers to questions that most people do not ask, and I knew for sure I could find them in the bible. So I read the bible and I learned a lot of things that challenged my beliefs. That's right, the bible is what led me to question some of the most fundamental aspects of the religion. Before this point all I knew was what others had told me, or from scriptures used during sermons.

I had questions like:

"Why is there a hell in the first place?"

"What kind of merciful, loving god could create a place such as hell?"

"How exactly did Adam & Eve sin? Why even put the tree there to tempt them in the first place if the god who put it there was not mischievous... at the very least contemptible?!"

"What is the Land of Nod, and who exactly did Cain find to be his wife in a world where no one else preexisted, save Adam & Eve's children?"

"Who or what is Nod anyways and what does it even mean?

"If Sin is an affront to God, why allow it to exist at all? He is the creator after all, and he can undo it... but then that implies a mistake in creation and doesn't align with his absolute perfection, therefore if sin is a creation of God, then it cannot be an affront to him, for nothing in creation could exist without his willing it to be so."

"It's evident that sin exists, so why does it exist? Obviously it is part of the plan or it wouldn't exist..."

"Why is there a war between Satan and God if God is all-powerful... it's no contest. Why allow humanity to suffer under 'The Prince of Darkness' when he could restore us to health and happiness in a moment? Unless of course there is some reason behind all of this that we do not understand because it isn't as the story tells us it is."

"If the Jews were God's chosen people, that descended from Adam & Eve... then who were the Gentiles who differed greatly from those who called themselves Jews?"

And people looked at ME LIKE I WAS CRAZY! Seriously? Has no one else ever thought about these questions before? This is just a few of the questions I asked.. there were many more questions concerning scriptural and doctrinal beliefs of the Church. Do you know the only three answers that were ever given to me? They were:

"Pray about it."
I did and I was told to look for it. That's where I found all of this.

"Have faith that God will reveal the answer in time."
If a man was thirsty, and begged you for water would you tell him that God will fulfill his thirst when God is ready to? Or would you do everything in your power to find some water to give to this man?

"We will find out when we die."
What's the point of living and learning if the answers to the hard questions cannot be attained in this life? I believe that one of my purposes is to expose the answers to those hard questions and help people who are having a hard time accepting them.

OK WHAT?! I am not satisfied living some complacent life with a religion that teaches me to be a sheep, easily herded to the slaughter without answering some of the most basic questions that any rational mind should ask off the bat.

However, that did not break my belief system... not until I hit 20 years old and the realization that I could not repair the patchwork house of sticks that was now my entire belief system. I realized that the church had no answers to these questions, even after searching into the deepest of theological researchers findings... the answers were always the same as the three I mentioned above. I was having no luck talking to people about them because that just made them think I was mad for even asking. They could not understand. I was a very bad sheep because I questioned... and I spent the next two years in utter devastation as my belief system collapsed inwardly upon it's hollow self... I could not even think about a god or the church. I was ANGRY! I felt cheated, I felt like everything I had spent my life doing up to that point had been a waste and a lie.

And then around 23 I reemerged from that dark place, though the topic of god was still like a bruise, but I began researching again. Only this time I was set on disproving the whole thing. I found more information with that mindset than I ever found attempting to answer my questions from within the church. Suddenly I found all sorts of "forbidden books" that the church had destroyed long, long ago that the ancient church could not allow (for they challenged the authority of the church by putting the church INSIDE of people instead of OUTSIDE)... I'm getting ahead of myself a little here by talking about my findings, but regardless I found a trove of information that reignited something inside me. I found my faith again, only this time it was not the same.

I no longer needed religion to tell me how to think, how to behave, what to believe, and who to associate with. All I needed was a direct relationship with God, similar to what I had before... just without all the crap that religion brainwashed me to believe regarding rules and doctrines and methods and whatnot. This is what God wanted all along with me and I feel that he and my spiritual guides have been taking me through the brush (AKA the road less traveled) for quite a while now in order to guide me to answers that I would never have learned had I stayed in the church. Call me a heretic if you like for thinking that God can do this, but then I say unto ye of little faith that God fits not in your box and by your own admittance works in mysterious ways.

So in the last 5 years or so I've researched Christianity, Judaism, and Paganism primarily. The first two because that is my audience for the most part, having 98% Christian friends. This is the world I grew up in and it's important for me to grasp as much as I can about the history of the church in order to better breakdown the reasons I no longer claim to be a part of it. (Tangent: I find it interesting how when one leaves the church they are suddenly deemed an atheist who no longer believes in God... that certainly isn't true... I actually find it quite disturbing how people justify this in their minds, but I digress.). The Paganism was for two reasons:

1. Almost every aspect of Christianity & Judaism was copied from ancient pagan traditions and beliefs. *GASP* I know, blasphemy... but read on where I get to that and you will see just how much Christianity has in common with its own arch-nemesis.

2. Because I've ALWAYS believed in magic, and faeries, and dragons, and goblins. I used to see them as a young child, and I remember fondly the kind goblinoid creature who watched over me at night. I never feared him or any of the other things I saw unless they truly were a malevolent being, but I was surrounded by benevolent ones who always kept me safe. It always bothered me that magic was forbidden to Christians and deemed one of the greatest acts of sin. Really? I think that the church feared what it could not control, which is quite clear from history, and thus the end of magic had to happen.

So I will now proceed into my findings... thanks for reading the above, it was nice to get it out of my system. Ironically, I have found possible answers to the questions above, though to many they may seem more mad than the questions themselves, I shall address them as we reach those topics.

Section 2: Research findings.

It is a difficult task to research Hebrew/Jewish history, as there are many inconsistencies that make it difficult to narrow down to a definitive timeline of events. For example, some reports show that Abraham led his tribe into Canaan between 1900 and 1500 BCE, a period of 400 years difference. To put this into perspective, the United States has not even been around that long. That is a very large window of time and makes it difficult to discern whether or not it is true or false.

The main point that I wanted to make in this section is how the Jews were originally polytheistic, as is evidenced in the Bible by them constantly reverting back to idol worship. Monotheism was forced upon them by their leaders and so by choice of conversion or death they chose to convert. Their ancient gods were plentiful, likely derived from Sumerian/Akkadian religions, of which culture their tribe(s) originated.

Polytheistic Monotheism:

It was not until the time of the Biblical Moses that they were led down the path of monotheism. What is interesting about this is that the Bible is a work of translation. Translations cannot always be exact, given that words may exist in one language where there is no parallel word in the other. In the old testament, there exist references to many different gods of the time: Yahweh (YHWH), Ba'al, El (Plural form: Elohim), Ishtar, and many others that the different tribes in the area of Judea believed in. It's almost impossible for those who rely only on the current translation of the Bible to know this because many of those words have been translated as "Lord" or merely "God" to pull a stronger monotheistic value to the texts.

That seems like a pretty outrageous claim if you grasp what I am suggesting. Though I would direct you to look to Genesis 1:26-27 (KJV)

" 26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them."

It is most interesting in this scripture how God refers to himself as "Us" and "Our" but then in the next passage it's back to a singular form of reference. This passage originally used the word "Elohim" instead of God. Elohim is a plural form of El, meaning god and just happens to be one of the Hebrews former polytheistic gods. The Elohim was their way of acknowledging all gods at once.

Many modern day biblical scholars will argue that this plural form suggests the Trinity, but there is no female in the trinity, and so whose likeness was she cast from? There was never even mention of the Trinity in the Bible. It is disconcerting when I read how Christians explain the Trinity:

Question: "What does the Bible teach about the Trinity?"

Answer: The most difficult thing about the Christian concept of the Trinity is that there is no way to perfectly and completely understand it. The Trinity is a concept that is impossible for any human being to fully understand, let alone explain. God is infinitely greater than we are; therefore, we should not expect to be able to fully understand Him. The Bible teaches that the Father is God, that Jesus is God, and that the Holy Spirit is God. The Bible also teaches that there is only one God. Though we can understand some facts about the relationship of the different Persons of the Trinity to one another, ultimately, it is incomprehensible to the human mind. However, this does not mean the Trinity is not true or that it is not based on the teachings of the Bible.
The Trinity is one God existing in three Persons. Understand that this is not in any way suggesting three Gods. Keep in mind when studying this subject that the word “Trinity” is not found in Scripture. This is a term that is used to attempt to describe the triune God—three coexistent, co-eternal Persons who make up God. (source: http://www.gotquestions.org/Trinity-Bible.html)

So, it's expected for us to grasp a concept that is "incomprehensible to the human mind?" and we are then further expected to put our faith in this irrational and unexplainable concept, yet to consider for one moment that this concept is ludicrous is madness? This is an example of how the Church attempts to explain something that would otherwise contradict the credibility of the Bible.

It's interesting too, this trinity. How do they explain this passage and just who are these seven Spirits of God?:

"And I beheld, and lo, in the midst of the throne and of the four beasts, and in the midst of the elders, stood a Lamb as it had been slain, having seven horns and seven eyes, which are the seven Spirits of God sent forth into all the earth." (Revelation 5:6)

What a frightening vision of Heaven... a slain lamb with seven horns and eyes?! Revelation in many ways depicts a vision of a Hell rather than a Heaven... what a mighty fearsome place it sounds to be...

Elohim is used in Exodus 12:12 to describe all of the Egyptian deities, and is used around 2570 times in the Hebrew Bible (Which is only the old testament mind you... 2570!!!). It also refers to El quite frequently (230 times in the OT). The mistranslation of these words has a huge significance upon the reliability of scripture itself. Let's look at Baal, which if translated means "Lord, Owner" or if left untranslated suggests the name of an ancient Akkadian deity. If we pick and choose which appearances of the word Baal get translated and which ones don't, we can control the context of the message AND protect our monotheistic belief system from being exposed. Suddenly "And Baal said.." becomes "And the Lord said.." and everything is peachy. But not really, not if this matters to you.

Suspension of Disbelief:

It's very interesting how when you read the Bible from a rational perspective, merely attempting to understand the words of what is said, you can walk away with nothing gained from it. Yet if you allow the suspension of disbelief to occur, then suddenly everything is real to you. This does not happen automatically, and it's actually something we are trained to do from a very young age.

When you sit and watch a movie, there are triggers that may or may not suspend your disbelief, mostly dependent upon how easily yours is triggered. It also has to do with interest, a lessened interest in something is less likely to trigger your SoD. What happens when your SoD is triggered is that your mind disengages doubt mechanisms, either somewhat or in whole, allowing your mind to process the information as it is presented. Normally you have many doubt mechanisms in place to prevent such things from occurring, but when it's a harmless type of movie then it's okay to allow yourself to remove the doubt to enjoy the movie.

When this is applied to the Bible, however, things become more dangerous. You are allowing yourself to believe blindly what this book says to be true without any collaborating information or corroboration from other sources. You allow one book to claim itself as an authority that it does not receive legitimately from any other authority except the one that the book says it is given by God.

This is interesting, because it's hypocritical really. Now this book, this Holy Book of God, has been allowed to transcend rational boundaries on authority that it grants upon itself by claiming that God inspired it. Other books that claim to be inspired by God are rejected, unless they align themselves with the original Holy Book of God and support it. Anything that uses scripture to disprove the validity of the bible is typically rejected by the Church.

In a computer programming mindset, this type of logic mechanism would be considered a virus. You cannot selectively choose what is holy and what is not simply based on the writings in a single book that cannot be proven to be true by any modern-day means.

Now, allow me to say that I believe in the Creator of all things, but I do not believe that such a Creator is even mentioned in any scripture except Genesis Chapter 1. Everything else in the whole bible is of questionable interest and in some instances contemptible. The slaughtering of innocents in the name of a merciful deity? Where is the mercy? The racist determination to wipe out all other tribes who refuse to convert to your belief system? This is the gist of the old testament in one passage.

7 They fought against Midian, as the Lord commanded Moses, and killed every man.8 Among their victims were Evi, Rekem, Zur, Hur and Reba—the five kings of Midian. They also killed Balaam son of Beor with the sword.9 The Israelites captured the Midianite women and children and took all the Midianite herds, flocks and goods as plunder.10 They burned all the towns where the Midianites had settled, as well as all their camps.11 They took all the plunder and spoils, including the people and animals,12 and brought the captives, spoils and plunder to Moses and Eleazar the priest and the Israelite assembly at their camp on the plains of Moab, by the Jordan across from Jericho.
13 Moses, Eleazar the priest and all the leaders of the community went to meet them outside the camp.14 Moses was angry with the officers of the army—the commanders of thousands and commanders of hundreds—who returned from the battle.
15 "Have you allowed all the women to live?" he asked them.16 "They were the ones who followed Balaam's advice and enticed the Israelites to be unfaithful to the Lord in the Peor incident, so that a plague struck the Lord's people.17 Now kill all the boys. And kill every woman who has slept with a man,18 but save for yourselves every girl who has never slept with a man. (Numbers 31:7-18)

Shameful and reprehensible is what I call it. So much for "Thou shalt not kill" "Thou shalt not steal" and "Thou shalt not commit adultery." What kind of god calls for his chosen people to take no prisoners in battle, to kill all men, women, and children (except young virgin girls who they are free to take as slaves to rape) and pillage the place for it's riches? An evil one, that's what... yet this same deity is the Lord of Mercy, Compassion, and Love?

No, MY Creator is merciful, compassionate, and loving, but the god of the old testament... no... irredeemable evil is what that god commands of his followers. I will not allow my suspension of disbelief to allow me to believe that this OT god of punishment, vengeance, jealousy, and murder is the same as the one that brought all things into existence. Moses was evil, plain and simple, and his directives were not as they are spelled out throughout the OT. Any man who could bring down the ten commandments to the people and not question a god who commands such evil is evil himself.

More dark acts can be read about here: http://www.nobeliefs.com/DarkBible/darkbible3.htm

Who was Jesus, really?

"Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. And a man's foes shall be they of his own household." (Matthew 10:34-36)

These words are spoken by Jesus to his disciples in the book of Matthew. I never recalled having read this despite having read Matthew like 20+ times. So much for him being the Prince of Peace... but oh, there is more:

I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches. I am the root and the offspring of David, [and] the bright and morning star. (Revelation 22:16)

This may not seem at first like anything, until you bring in the character of Lucifer (Satan), whose name means "light-bearer", or "the morning star"

"How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!" (Isaiah 14:12 KJV)

"How you have fallen from heaven, morning star, son of the dawn! You have been cast down to the earth, you who once laid low the nations!" (Isaiah 14:12 NIV)

This is very strange, because I did not encounter this information until I was researching this very document. The whole Jesus is Satan thing is about as blasphemous as it comes, but there are instances like the ones I mentioned above that bring validity to the question of are the two actually one?

While I'm thinking about this... how does the Light-Bearer, keeper of the light, fall? That seems preposterous! By his very definition he seems incapable of falling into darkness, for he bears the light and therefore he can enter no darkness for darkness retreats from the light.

Suppose ye that I am come to give peace on earth? I tell you, Nay; but rather division: For from henceforth there shall be five in one house divided, three against two, and two against three. The father shall be divided against the son, and the son against the father; the mother against the daughter, and the daughter against the mother; the mother in law against her daughter in law, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. (Luke 12:51-53)

"If anyone comes to Me, and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be My disciple... So then, none of you can be My disciple who does not give up all his own possessions." (Luke 14:25 & 33)

I understand how the above two passages can suggest that one must shed their earthly possessions to follow Jesus, but to hate your father and your mother? Doesn't the same book tell us to honor our mother and father? To hate your spouse and your children?! They are not possessions, they are people and are not owned by anyone. How can anyone who claims to be good say such things?

"And behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life? And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments." (Matthew 19:16-17)

Guess that explains it. Interesting that he doesn't say "My Father" or something that ties him to his mentioning of "God" but it almost sounds like this person is not referencing his father... but God. If in fact he were one with God as it is claimed that he is, then this whole scripture would make no sense at all, for he would be as good as God. Is this Jesus or a Charlatan posing as him? These passages contradict the very nature that is taught about Jesus, so what is true?

Don't get me wrong here, I'm NOT saying that Jesus is Satan, however I find it interesting that scripture may be.

Creation, Again?

Let's jump back to Genesis Chapters 1 & 2. This is one of the biggest reasons I had to leave the church, because I could not reconcile the massive problem that two creations pose.

In Chapter 1 we have the gods (the Elohim) who created everything, benevolently and equal. It reads in modern versions as simply God, in a masculine form, but references "us" and "our" which isn't something it does in the rest of the Bible.

26 Then God said, "Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; and let them rule over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the sky and over the cattle and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth."27 God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.28 God blessed them; and God said to them, "Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth, and subdue it; and rule over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the sky and over every living thing that moves on the earth." (Genesis 1:26-28)

Above you will see how the scripture uses pluralisms to describe this specific process in creation. It then reverts back to a singular form, which is odd. This Genesis 1:26 is very strange in that nowhere else in scripture does God refer to "himself" in the plural. This cannot be a "majestic plural" which appeared in the late 12th century when royalty/clergy would refer to themselves in the plural. Before this, there was no "majestic plural" and never before then did someone refer to themselves in the plural when they were a singular entity, describing themselves.

Then Creation occurs again? Although very similar, there are problems with this second creation story.

The Bible starts with this:

1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. (Genesis 1:1)

However, the second creation starts with this:

4 This is the account of the heavens and the earth when they were created, in the day that the LORD God made earth and heaven. (Genesis 2:4)

Interesting distinction... God vs. the Lord God!! Which of these two are rightfully God? If you remember above, I mentioned that Baal translated means "The Lord" which could very well be this secondary figure that Genesis 2:4 begins to mention. Also of interesting note is that this second creation begins on the first-chapter God's 7th day, the day of rest. A day which was made sanctified for all to rest, this new god began creating again.

This new "God" does everything a little bit differently. Like completely changing the order of Creation. It feels like it attempts to play off the original Creation, but since the order is entirely different it cannot be the same. Also, it feels unplanned, like he was going "Oh yeah, you'll need this... oh and this too.." which isn't very "perfect" or "all-knowing" or even slightly "with it" really.

It's interesting that later on, in Mark, Jesus clears up which of the two stories was real:

But from the beginning of the creation God made them male and female. (Mark 10:6)

Notice he does not say the Lord God, and that he also says they were created simultaneously which is just like the first story, nothing like the second.

In case you're not convinced, let's examine the orders of the Creation stories:

The Order of Creation, and then again, but different this time

GENESIS 1 CREATION (God's Version)

Broken into Days

Follows this order:
-Day 1: Heavens & Earth & Day & Night
-Day 2: Dividing the Waters
-Day 3: Dry Land & seas, also grass, herbs, & trees
-Day 4: The Sun & The Moon, dividing day and night
-Day 5: Ocean and Air creatures
-Day 6: Land creatures & Man and Woman
-Day 7: Rested, Sanctified

Called everything good upon creating it

Man & Woman were equals

Made no rules for mankind, nor conditions for life. They were sent on their way because they were made "good".

GENESIS 2 CREATION (The Lord God's Version)

Not Broken into Days

Rough order:
1. Heavens and Earth
2. Plants
3. Man from dust
4. The Garden of Eden, Tree of Good & Evil
5. Beasts of the field
6. Woman from Man's rib

Didn't make a note of whether it was good or not

Man was made dominant over Woman

Threatened to kick them out when they eat of the Tree of Good & Evil and bring shame upon themselves. Told them they would DIE.

I think it's pretty clear which God I would want to be created by and which one it would be an absolute nightmare to have been created by. The stories may be similar but they are strikingly different, different enough to not be the same, close enough to confuse Christians into believing they are the same. Hopefully that has been cleared up now.

Cain's Wife

Adam and Eve had two sons that are mentioned in the Bible. Cain and Abel. If you've read the story, you know that Cain kills Abel and is banished to the Land of Nod. Here is where the Bible leaves the story off pretty much, but not before mentioning that Cain finds a wife in the Land of Nod.

Christian scholars will argue that Cain must have taken one of his sisters to be his wife, but this is problematic because the Bible never mentions again about another person being banished to the Land of Nod, which evidently would be quite an important event as it was before.

9 And the Lord said unto Cain, Where is Abel thy brother? And he said, I know not: Am I my brother's keeper?10 And he said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from the ground.s11 And now art thou cursed from the earth, which hath opened her mouth to receive thy brother's blood from thy hand;12 When thou tillest the ground, it shall not henceforth yield unto thee her strength; a fugitive and a vagabond shalt thou be in the earth.
13 And Cain said unto the Lord, My punishment is greater than I can bear.s14 Behold, thou hast driven me out this day from the face of the earth; and from thy face shall I be hid; and I shall be a fugitive and a vagabond in the earth; and it shall come to pass, that every one that findeth me shall slay me.15 And the Lord said unto him, Therefore whosoever slayeth Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the Lord set a mark upon Cain, lest any finding him should kill him.
16 And Cain went out from the presence of the Lord, and dwelt in the land of Nod, on the east of Eden.17 And Cain knew his wife; and she conceived, and bare Enoch: and he builded a city, and called the name of the city, after the name of his son, Enoch. (Genesis 4:9-17)

Some very interesting things pop out of this scripture that are concerning. First, as I asked above, just who was Cain's wife? Also, upon further examination and bolded for your convenience, exactly who were these every ones that would find and slay him?

If indeed, at this point, it were ONLY Adam, Eve, and Cain (Abel being dead), then who else would there be to find and kill Cain? Who did he have to fear exactly? Perhaps the same people from whom he found his wife.

In this case, the Bible appears to be saying clearly that Adam and Eve were not the first people upon Earth, as the second story of Creation suggests, but there were others who preexisted that creation that dwelt elsewhere on Earth.

Adam & Eve were the creation of "The Lord God" but not "Elohim" and further down the rabbit hole we go...

Hell hath no Fury indeed!

The very concept of Hell is difficult for any human being to wrap their mind around, though relatable in some ways to the aspects of life that we endure here as humans. But this is not the picture painted by the Church. Their picture is vastly darker, oh so much worse than anything imaginable on Earth. But exactly where does Hell come from?

Well it started out rather innocently enough in the ancient Jewish beliefs. Sheol was its name and it was simply the grave, a place situated below the surface, a place of darkness, silence and forgetfulness. But as time went on, Sheol grew in meaning to become more and more sinister a place. By the third-second century BC, there were now two distinct divisions of hell: one for the good and righteous, one for the wicked and evil. By the new testament time period it was the ultimate place of punishment, now called Gehenna.

Christians now believe Hell to be the home of the Devil, the ultimate punishment for those who did not accept Jesus Christ as their Lord. Fiery torment awaits those who are sent there by the irrevocable judgment of God.

This idea of Hell is considered ridiculous to anyone outside of the Christian religion. I tend to agree having been a super Christian myself and even then I had a problem with this idea. I do not believe that the true Creator who is merciful, compassionate, and loving to all things and to all peoples could bear the loss of even one soul to such a miserable torment for all eternity. Nor do I see such a God passing judgment that would send a soul to such a place no matter the circumstances, for God loves all of his children equally.

If your child committed a crime would you love them less? No, though you would be very concerned about them and want to help set them back onto a healthy path. This instinctual notion within us is mirrored from the ones who originally made us in their image. It is impossible that the true Creator would destroy anything that was created by their hand. Especially in such a fashion as eternal torment. That is not love, that is not compassion, and that is most certainly not mercy. Even a punishment of non-existence would be better than eternal torment.

What God can witness his child suffer unspeakable horrors for all of eternity? Does this delight God? He is all-knowing, therefore not one moment of their torment would escape his sight, his hearing, his feeling. A truly empathic God would be condemning himself to suffer eternal torment through this act, and that does not seem like something an absolutely perfect being would do to themselves.

I personally do not believe there will be some "Rapture" that takes all Christians off the planet into Heaven, leaving those who did not believe in Jesus Christ to suffer an Apocalypse. I do not believe that believing any which way has any effect on where you go in the afterlife.

To those who would argue against that I ask this... have you ever played a video game where you killed lots of lots of people? I know that I have, though put in words like that its rather shameful sounding. However, that is not who I am, not really... I am not the character in the video game, though for a short time I was, while I played it. This life could be very similar, in that who we are in this life is but a challenge endured for our soul's growth. We endure hardships and experience miracles, we play to level up.

There are even some people who tell me that "Jesus is kind of like an insurance plan for me, I'll believe in him in case the Bible is right about me otherwise going to Hell," I say this: Fear is the opposite of love. If you are choosing to be Christian out of fear of what could happen otherwise, then you do not know God, for fear is the tool of evil. Sorry for the tongue in cheek but... You enter into the Synagogue of Satan every time you go to worship because fear is not the tool that the true Creator uses. He would never expect you to be anything except what you were born to be! Be yourself, be loved, and love others.

I mean really... How many times have you heard "God is Love" and how many times have you heard "God is Fear?" I can hate you, and I can love you... both at the same time. However, I cannot fear you and love you, both, for if I fear you there is no place in my heart for love to settle, and if I love you then there is no place for fear to settle. But then again, most of humanity has forgotten what love really is, because it's not what we think it is. At least, not as narrow and specific as we tend to make it be.

Orthodox - Orthowhati?

I'm about to talk about the Orthodox Church in the next section, but what is the Orthodox Church anyways? The "Church" as I refer to it mostly throughout this article includes the Roman Catholic Church, all Protestant (Baptist, Methodist, Episcopalian, Evangelical, Lutheran, Church of Christ, etc.), and the Greek Orthodox Church.

Orthodox is defined as: Conforming to what is accepted as right or true.

So who decided what was right and/or true?

That would be Eusebius in the service to Emperor Constantine I, who established the Church. Here is a snippet of an article I found relating the role that Eusebius played in Christianity:

Eusebius, a little known figure in the Christian reality, was the first court-appointed Christian theologian in the service of the Emperor Constantine. Constantine commissioned Eusebius, personally, to produce fifty excellent copies of the sacred scriptures but gave no instruction what books Eusebius should include or, on what authority or criteria that decision should be made. He was given sole authority over this project and, therefore, became the first editor of the Bible we have today.

The entire basis of belief for the Christian Church allegedly comes from the Bible, although simple research proves the reality to be otherwise. However, this concept is accepted by most Catholics and Protestants. There are actually surviving copies of that original Bible called the Codex Sinaiticus. This Bible, produced by Eusebius, is the same as that produced by King James with the exception of the New Testament Epistle of Barnabas, and the book of Hermas, which, though widely regarded as inspired, were purged before the 1611 translation.

The religion created by Constantine was formed by the "opinions" of Eusebius and there is no record of any reference to standards of historical research or textual criticism. He did not form his idea of what was accepted by using the books that existed as the foundation for that acceptance, but first created the religious beliefs and accepted only the books that matched those beliefs. Eusebius stated that the only standard he used in deciding which texts to call "recognized" is to accept only books that were recognized by orthodox authors he knew. Merriam-Webster defines "orthodox" as: "conforming to established doctrine especially in religion". Eusebius determined the doctrine of the religion and therefore became the sole judge of what was "orthodox".

The result of Eusebius' final judgment of biblical canon, the books of the New Testament to be included in that original Bible, was the division of all known and accepted books into three categories:

Recognized - Those books accepted by others that mirrored his specific beliefsThose books generally make up the modern New Testament.

Recognized but Disputed - Those books accepted by most others that held his beliefs but disputed by some that also followed his concept of orthodox beliefs.
Those books included the Acts of Paul, the Book of the Shepherd of Hermas, the Apocalypse of Peter, the Epistle of Barnabas, the Teachings of the Apostles, and the Gospel of the Hebrews.

Heretical - Those universally regarded as heretical by those adhering to his idea of orthodoxy.Those books included, but were not restricted to, the Gospel of Peter, the Gospel of Thomas, the Gospel of Matthias, as well as other gospel accounts not specified, and the Acts of Andrew and the Acts of John.

So, if Eusebius accepted the authority that recognized the book as orthodox, the book was accepted. If Eusebius did not consider the authority that recognized the book as orthodox the book was rejected. It should be noted that the sole reason Eusebius uses to reject all but the four gospels now found in the New Testament was that he considered them to be a "holy quaternion" of books that could not be changed. Later in church history, the divine nature of this specific group of four books being the only possible gospels to be used was justified because there were only four directions, and four pillars of the Earth, to name a few. Hardly a proper reason to exclude all other gospels without consideration..

Who was this man that determined the basis for almost all the beliefs of a religion, which is accepted by over 2 billion people under the control of churches claiming the title, Christian? No single person had more influence over those beliefs than the original editor of the "Bible" and the first theologian, who determined the doctrines of the first Universal / Catholic Church, from which come, most of the beliefs of the Protestant Church. There is no dispute that Eusebius was completed dedicated to the divine authority and reform agenda of the Emperor Constantine, and that he was trusted to shape that agenda into a religion by Constantine. It is most curious that there was never any pronouncement by any central authority, such as the Pope, in all of Christian history concerning, which books belonged in the Bible, until 1443 AD at the conclusion of the Council of Florence.

As a church historian, Eusebius receives very low marks and has even been characterized by the noted Swiss historian, Jacob Burckhardt, as "the first thoroughly dishonest historian of antiquity". Eusebius openly displays his lack of integrity in his Ecclesiastical History by stating "We shall introduce into this history in general only those events which may be useful first to ourselves and afterwards to posterity."

As a theologian he directly affirmed his total disregard for honesty, in his Evangelical Preparation, by declaring "How it may be lawful and fitting to use falsehood as a medicine, and for the benefit of those who want to be deceived.", as well as "it is necessary sometimes to use falsehood as a medicine for those who need such an approach", and "falsehood is something even more useful". Here we have the very first theologian clearly stating that it was proper to use deception to achieve an end. To put in different terms; the ends justify the means, no matter how deceptive those means are.

This man, who has sole authority over what is doctrine in the Christian religion, and, who lacks moral integrity, decided that, at least, 33% of all the commonly accepted books considered to be "New Testament" by the earlier church, should be purged. (http://www.bibleufo.com/anomchurch8.htm)

That is Orthodox for you, the decisions of a man who on a whim tossed out books without consideration simply because he felt there should be only four... a man who, by admittance, tossed out all books that were not in line with the doctrines that he established before even began reviewing the books... a man who admits that he included in the Bible only the books that are first useful to "ourselves" first and then to all others.. a man who believed deception was an appropriate means to an end, especially if that end was to his own personal benefit...

This is the foundation of the Bible, which is the foundation for the Church, which includes the church you attend no matter what denomination it claims to be. Do you feel good about the motives of the first editor of the Bible? Does it sit well with you that one person, one completely dishonest person, defined "what is accepted as right or true?"

Of course, then there was King James I, who commissioned the creation of the King James Version of the bible. Man was this guy interesting. In summary and to be as concise as possible:

James I believed strongly in the "Divine Right of Kings" meaning that if there was an evil king on the throne, the people should suffer in silence because this was God's punishment. If there was a good king on the throne the people should be happy because this was God's blessing. Boy did James hate the Geneva Bible, which had marginal notes written largely by the leaders of the Reformation such as John Knox and John Calvin. James wanted those marginal notes gone because they included interpretations by those religious leaders that challenged his ideals, and the people knew who wrote them... it would be no easy task to discredit Knox and Calvin. So instead he commissioned his own bible that would not have the marginal notes at all! He also banned the Geneva Bible and anyone caught with one would be put to death.

Oh and here's why I said he was interesting:

The very people who use the King James Bible today would be the first ones to throw such a deviant out of the congregations. James enjoyed killing animals. He called it "hunting." Once he killed an animal, he would literally roll about in its blood. Some believe that he practiced bestiality while the animal lay dying.

James was a sadist as well as a sodomite: he enjoyed torturing people. While King of Scotland in 1591, he personally supervised the torture of poor wretches caught up in the witchcraft trials of Scotland. James would even suggest new tortures to the examiners. One "witch," Barbara Napier, was acquitted. That event so angered James that he wrote personally to the court on May 10, 1551, ordering a sentence of death, and had the jury called into custody. To make sure they understood their particular offense, the King himself presided at a new hearing - and was gracious enough to release them without punishment when they reversed their verdict.

History has it that James was also a great coward. On January 7, 1591, the king was in Edinburgh and emerged from the toll booth. A retinue followed that included the Duke of Lennox and Lord Hume. They fell into an argument with the laird of Logie and pulled their swords. James looked behind, saw the steel flashing, and fled into the nearest refuge which turned out to be a skinner's booth. There to his shame, he "fouled his breeches in fear."

In short, King James I was the kind of despicable creature honorable men loathed, Christians would not associate with, and the Bible itself orders to be put to death (Leviticus 20:13). Knowing what King James was we can easily discern his motives. (http://members.iimetro.com.au/~hubbca/bible101.htm#BIBLE%20101)

If Charles Manson were to commission his own version of the Bible, would you consider it trustworthy and credible given his stance toward Christianity? What about the Adolf Hitler Version? no? But then again, no one in today's world knows much about King James other than his name appears on the King James Version of the Bible, which they may or may not read.

Pre-existent themes

When you bring up the topic of reincarnation, one immediately jumps to the beliefs of the Buddhists or the Hindus who believe in the Karmic cycle of reincarnation. This cycle is completed by living many lifetimes of good in order to reach the final stage of freedom from the cycle called Nirvana.

To any Christian, that belief does not fall within the framework of their accepted doctrines, because it contradicts the process of redemption; by accepting Jesus Christ as savior you will go to heaven for eternity, and if you reject Him then you will go to hell for all eternity.

As a Christian, I never understood why we were given but one life to live, to learn, to get it right or suffer eternally for it. That seemed rather unfair. We are all raised in different environments, with different circumstances surrounding our finances, our beliefs, and our positions in this world. It is rare to find one path to a single answer. 2+2=4 but so does 1+3 and 9-5. There are very few absolute truths, and even those may be arguable. This is rational and analytical thinking, which seems to be frowned upon when applied to religion.

The original Gnostic Christians were highly spiritual people, who believed that knowledge was the path to wisdom and understanding. In many ways they had a view of existence that we are still struggling to recapture to this day. They were not afraid to question a concept if it appeared to be lacking in evidence, much like the scientific method. They were also not afraid of posing theories that may contradict the accepted beliefs if the evidence was there to support the theory.

The Orthodox Church’s view is much more rigid and strict. Questions are not to be asked, theories are not to be posed that threaten the accepted doctrines of the church. To do either of those is heresy, punishable by death or banishment. At least this was the custom for most of history. It drew upon Old Testament writings in order to justify the means of extinguishing opposition to their central core. The outcome of this policy has led to millions of deaths of “unbelievers” and “believers” alike. The crusades for instance… over NINE of them, not counting the Children’s crusade and the Northern Crusades, were a travesty of immeasurable proportions.

I find it interesting that the Orthodox Church, with its rigid thinking and “holy” hierarchy has maintained itself despite its complete disregard for the teachings that they profess to be absolute truth. No other institution in the world or throughout history is responsible for more deaths than the Orthodox Church.

“I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ.” Gandhi

I’ve brought up the topic with Christians throughout my life how tragically horrible the Church has been throughout history and done so in the name of God. They would acknowledge how horrible it was, but say that times have changed and that stuff doesn’t happen anymore. Really? Has it really stopped happening? You have to look no further back than a few weeks to see the death of Muammar Gaddafi and the reaction I’ve seen from Christians. They celebrate his death, his inhumane murder without a trial. To celebrate any death is a travesty, and it matters little what truth people know about it as long as they are able to villainize the person. How definitely UNCHRISTIAN.

I know I’m straying from the topic at hand, but I do so in order to convey how absolutely horrible the Orthodox Church has been throughout history. By establishing their actions as heinous, their words are made hollow and empty. Their holy teachings are ineffective because even some of those who tout themselves as incredible servants to God are some of the most bigot-minded, selfish people I have ever met. Why does anyone take this “authority” as credible when their actions identify them as fear-mongering, war-inciting, deviants? Their thirst for power across the globe has caused the death of millions of people. Not to mention that their intolerance of foreign ideas has led to the destruction of some of history’s greatest libraries and genocide of entire peoples.

I personally have come to believe in reincarnation, and what led me to believe in it was a sudden realization about past lives. There has been much work done to prove the existence of past lives through past-life regression therapy. People have been able to recall historically provable knowledge from first-hand experience in a previous lifetime. In some cases, it reveals knowledge that few others would even know. Like in the case of one boy who remembered.

Visit here to read/watch that story: http://www.reversespins.com/proofofreincarnation.html

Past lives explain many things, especially the things that we believe that we don’t remember exactly where we came to believe them. Fears especially apply here, as most fears seem irrational due to a lack of triggers in this life that would explain them. If we carry over memories from one life to the next then that would explain this phenomena. Just because you can’t recall them doesn’t mean they are not there in your memory. How often do you forget things? You know it’s still in your memory somewhere, you just can’t find it until something triggers it again. It’s a predisposition to specific things that allows us to sometimes pick up where we left off, or at the very least progress much faster through them than others without such a predisposition.

You need look no further than child prodigies who pick up a craft with near mastery in but a couple of years. How could they be so much more advanced than the rest of humanity in that specific area from the beginning? The theory is that they possess a predisposition, which allows prior lifetime knowledge to become unlocked as they pursue it again in this life.

I have always believed in magic, as I said above, even while I was a “Super Christian” who believed the Bible to be a literal account of history and the Word of God, I struggled because I still believed in magic. Magic was forbidden to Christians, deemed heretical, and almost all knowledge of it has been destroyed. Where did this belief come from? My parents did not teach me, yet it was inherently there from the moment I could think. It’s a bit embarrassing to admit, but I even believed that if I was really angry and curled my fingers hard enough that I would turn into a horrible monster. I was most disappointed when it didn’t occur as I knew it would, but the fact that I believed so strongly would suggest a predisposition.

Even today when I watch movies that display forms of magic or even mystical creatures like Unicorns, I am overwhelmed with such sadness that tears start flowing down my face. To best describe it, it feels like remembering something that has been lost to you that was almost as precious as life itself. I cannot explain it any other way than saying “I miss what I have never known” unless of course that isn’t true and at one point I knew it all too well, just not in this lifetime.

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That concludes Note 1. As I proceed into Note 2 I will focus entirely on what I found as soon as I emerged from the box mindset that I had previous to losing my religion. I will link it here when I have posted it for simple continuation. Until then thank you so much for reading :)

(UPDATE: Note 2 is still on my agenda, however I have had many other things to think about in the present so while I hope to get it written eventually, it may not be until late 2012 that it gets posted.)

Dancing with the Starseeds

I'm taking a leap of faith here with this blog post that the people I know are open-minded and willing to consider what I'm saying to be a possible truth.

Dancing with the Starseeds!

I've realized over the last few months of research, introspection, meditation, and basic intuitive processes that I identify with those who call themselves Starseeds. I was reluctant to do this at first, because at the time I was not ready for the information that I would discover in this area, but now it all makes perfect sense why I do the things I do, why I am the way I am, why I have no rhythm... well I suppose it doesn't really explain that per se, but it was a definition that came as close to defining me as I've ever found before.

So what exactly is a Starseed? Well before I touch on that let me explain the predicament of the world a little bit. The world has gone through cycles of life and death, poverty and prosperity, growth and destruction, but it's ready for that to change. Almost everything I have found that resonates within me as truth suggests that this world is ready to ascend to the next dimensional plane, the fourth! It's easy for us to fail to see the Earth as a living conscious being with a soul of her own. I read an amazing analogy in one of the articles I found in my research. Does the ant realize that it's on a mountain? The ant may realize it's environment is rocky, and slopy, but to such a tiny creature even a rock may seem like a mountain. So too do we fail to see the earth for what it is, instead seeing only our environments that we engage in. Perhaps if we were giants we would have an easier time grasping this idea, but in the meantime just go with me on this okay?

So what does that mean for a planet to ascend to the next dimension? Well it means for one that she wants her inhabitants to be ready to make the ascension with her, so she's given us plenty of time to wake up from the pointless rivalries, selfish motivations, greed/fear based societies and realize that while we've known all along that Love is the greatest of all feelings, we never have truly embraced a life of love. A life of love means so many things, like putting down all prejudice, setting aside pointless beliefs, embracing one and all as you would your own child, and seeing the good in all situations, because love... true love conquers all. Not that love is the conquering type, but it's a common phrase and I thought it was clever usage... okay.. moving forward.

So it's up to us to now embrace love over hate / self / fear. Well, from an observational standpoint I don't think we're quite grasping that concept very well. Fear is taught to us to be a healthy thing, or we learn it as a survival mechanism... it's kind of like grieving in the arms of the one who is poisoning you everyday... you are drawn to it for some reason even though it's working to kill you both physically and spiritually. You've heard of the Illuminati, the New World Order, the Free Masons, etc.. I'm sure at least one of those anyways, and they're the instigators of this fear-based world. Everything they've done over the last thousand years (yes, it's hard to imagine a secret society lasting that long, but it has.... because their nefarious ways are too ingrained for them to disperse for the sake of peace) has been done to take control of everything. They control the banks, the food industry, the pharmaceutical industry, the militaries of many of the worlds greatest nations, the Vatican, and their agenda is the culmination of their darkest dreams... to reduce this world's population down to 500 million - 1 billion people and rule over them like slaves. So, in order to do this they need a system that evokes fear and self, which they've accomplished in a number of obvious ways.

They've taught a lot of people to LOVE fear. These people love watching scary movies, thrill rides, feats of absolute insanity like jumping out of a plane or even off a cliff! It may seem like minor indulgence because the thrill is invigorating, but the fear mindset is a disease nonetheless. Now don't get me wrong here, I'm not saying that if you do or enjoy these things that you're evil or selfish, but what I'm saying is that these things are just another way that we've been brainwashed to believe that something that isn't okay is.

Self is a state of cosmic unawareness. We believe that we are alone at the core of our being, and we don't know what to believe spiritually, or we think that we do, but in reality we've been fed a bunch of cleverly planned, amazingly executed lies. Now the lies may have a little bit of truth to them to give you the taste of truth, but just because you scrape the fungus off the moldy bread does not mean the bread is now safe to eat. That little bit of truth is just enough to trick people into believing something that is insanely ridiculous, or at the very least it gives off a few red flags, but we're trained to ignore those because... well because that's what the bible says and what the bible says is the absolute truth given unto it by itself, and so people believe this book because it says to believe it. That's just one example, religiously, of how a lie can be transformed into something almost miraculously convincing with just enough truth to lend it credence where it would have otherwise had none at all. Now as far as Christianity goes, I am not denying Christ here... I believe a man came (a starseed actually) who wanted to teach the world Christ-Consciousness, but instead his tale was corrupted by the nefarious ones in power (Illuminati) to speak more a story that would give them further power in the world. And power they achieved. By the middle ages the Church was THE power of Europe, and anyone who spoke against it was tortured and slain for heresy. Now there's living out the message that this Christ taught us, kill anyone who disagrees... who does that sound more like to you? Anyways, let's move on..

In order to invoke the sense of self, we've been brainwashed into believing that Fluoride is safe. Fluoride, which is more toxic to humans than lead and only slightly less toxic than arsenic is purposefully dumped into our water supply at an EPA standard of 4000 parts per billion. Wow, that's a lot... especially considering that the EPA limits the amount of Lead to 15 parts per billion and Arsenic to only 10 parts per billion. Anything higher than those numbers is considered unsafe, yet Fluoride is allowed such a CRAZY high number? WHY IN THE WORLD would this substance, the main ingredient in rat poison, a deadly by-product of industrial facilities be put into our water supply? Because it helps our teeth?!! WHO CARES IF IT MAKES OUR TEETH WHITER IF IT KILLS US?!

Fluoride is a poison that settles in the brain, and actually allows for more lead to be absorbed into your system through molecular bonding. It's deadly stuff and it even says to contact poison control immediately on the back of your toothpaste bottle if you "accidentally" swallow any. Well it's been discovered that our pineal gland, the source of intuition, often referred to as our Third Eye, our "modem" if you will into the universal consciousness is suppressed by Fluoride. It actually causes the pineal gland to shrink and harden into a rock-like state that serves almost no purpose to us at all. This cut off from the universal consciousness causes us to feel alone, to feel ourselves as separate when in reality we are all connected. Without our pineal glands, we will serve ourselves first, and without our intuition to guide us right, we'll believe whatever lie is well sold to us, whether it's religion, or prejudice, or politics, whatever the case may be... it's time to put an end to it, and you can start by doing everything you can to eliminate your fluoride intake, and work on meditating which should in time allow your pineal gland to grow back from it's stony state into a functioning (as intended from birth) organ in your body!

So... back to the main idea of what exactly is a starseed and why am I dancing with one? Starseeds understand their place here, they are pre-programmed before incarnation to awaken despite whatever may be going on in their life, at least enough to begin working towards a full awakening when they can begin to work their mission. We are here to raise the frequency of the planet and all of it's inhabitants. Just by being here we help to raise it, but by spreading awareness and doing what we can to help others awaken we further spread this goal we all share that's been set forth by the Divine Creator. So who are starseeds? Well, we aren't from around these parts. As the name implies, we come from other star systems where we achieved both physical and spiritual maturity and instead of settling down into whatever heaven or nirvana was available at that point, we chose instead to reach out to lesser evolved worlds, to help them in their spiritual growth, and to help in any way that we can. I've known that I had a purpose in this life ever since I was a child, but only in the last eight years did I realize it was a mission, and only in the last few months have I gained insight as to what that mission entails. I've never fit in here, as anyone who knows me at all can agree with at some level. I'm not better than anyone else, nor am I saying that I'm more evolved really, because at this point in time I'm human like you, and I don't remember much from before I came here just like you, and I struggle with problems just like you, but I'm choosing to be a light in a darkened world. I'm done being a candle or a lantern, I'm ready to move up to being a beacon of light for many to see, to be like the sun and shine. I want to embrace love over fear, over hate, over self. And I want to set an example for anyone who is willing to listen to my words because together we can do this.

If you disagree with what I say, that's perfectly fine... I'm not condemning anyone to anything for having other beliefs, because that's not a message of love but would be a message of fear, hate, and selfishness. Those are mindsets of the old world that want us to stay believing certain things in order to keep us within their grasp. To truly love is a miracle, and when you're ready for that you will set aside your hate, your fears, and your lonely sense of self because there is simply no room for those things and they aren't compatible with the new path. However, it's okay if you don't, because not everyone is ready this time around for that. Souls are young and old, and just like an old person is no better than a young one, the same goes for souls, except it just means that it may be in another life that you achieve this mindset. It's cool either way, because every life engages us in learning and growth and that in itself is exciting!

So, if dancing with the starseeds seems like something you're interested in (sorry for my extreme corniness with that phrase), start researching! Question what you know, open your mind, meditate. The answers are within you, the spark of the Divine Creator is within you. Don't take what I've said to be anymore than what you believe now, but I urge you to discern for yourself what is the truth and what isn't. Look deep within you, talk to your Higher Self. There are countless beings out there who want to help you, but you have to ask for it... some rule about messing with free will or whatnot. You are an amazing being, regardless of what you decide after reading this :)

The Book We're Reading = Life

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present." - Master Oogway

I'm not sure how many of you have thought about the current moment we're in, but I'd like you to suspend your preconceptions for a moment and just go with me on this ride. We've been told from an early age that we are going to die, that we are dying even as you read this, that the only appointment we'll never miss is the one we have with death. And then others expound on what happens after this event, but I'm not going into that, but I touch on it to point out the fear that is created from this frame of thinking. WE ARE A SOCIETY CONSTRUCTED ON FEAR. Now I'll do something rare and quote the Bible, because it just so happens to coincide with what I'm wanting to convey here:
“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18

So what? Fear and love cannot coexist, blah blah blah yadda yadda, what's the point I'm trying to make here? Here's the thing, I want to present you with something that may give you some comfort from the fear. Our entire lives are spent in a state of fear (will I die, will I lose my job, will my spouse be angry, will I make enough money to pay the bills this month, etc.) and for what purpose? Well, hopefully there is reason to it all, and here's my best explanation for it:

Imagine for a moment that you're consciousness is expanded to include every moment of your entire life. Every moment that's ever happened, every moment you have yet to experience, it's all written down like in a book. However, the human mind (conscious mind) we have allows us to only experience one moment at a time, thus creating the illusion of time and choice and allows us the gift of mystery. This "book" was written before we ever even came here, and the purpose as best as I can discern is that these are the things our higher self/soul wanted to experience first hand in order to grow spiritually.

When I tell people this they often get upset and think "What's the point of any of this if there is no free will and everything is already preset?" This of course is the wrong attitude to take towards this, because there is free will on the soul level, but here there is not. All the decisions were already made by our soul selves and now we're experiencing the story unfold. Masterfully scripted, the book of our lives allow us to determine exactly what our souls need in order to move on / advance / evolve. By incarnating into the story we've created, we are free to experience the emotions, the tragedies, the exciting moments for ourselves.

Think for a moment how much you can really take away from a book that you've read. We can become attached to characters, somewhat understanding where they are coming from but never truly understand what they are thinking, feeling, experiencing first hand. That's the purpose of this life, we are injecting ourselves into the story that we wrote beforehand and experiencing it one moment at a time. It's actually pretty brilliant if you think about it, to create the illusion of choice yet retain the preset is an amazing feat.

So what I'm presenting to you here is that everything is already written, you're a reader of your own book, your own life's story, and because you are in it you get the opportunity to experience it first hand. Does the story suck? Maybe! But every experience we go through prepares us for the next, so for the whole story to make sense, the back story (ie. the worst of times) is necessary for us to endure in order to appreciate the end of the story to it's fullest.

Setting aside promises of afterlife, and viewing just this life as a book of choices that you made before you were even born, do you feel you have anymore hope or at least contentment with the situation you've found yourself in? I'm not going to delve into what happens after death in this blog, because I want you to realize that you've chosen all of this, and while it's sometimes hard and we want to end it, the show must go on. Try your best to enjoy even the tragedies, understanding that your "loss" was a decision that was made by all parties affected before any of us even came here, so try to learn as much as you can. Choose love, and release the fear, and you will find your growth here can be limitless. :)

Cheers

The Great What If?

Something is happening, it's undeniable unless you've been living under a rock, but even then you should have noticed that the happenings are even occurring there.

So here's what I propose to do: I'm going to try to take all the research that I've done thus far and throw it out there. The validity of my words can be taken into question, but if you feel so obliged to take the research into your own hands and find out what I have, you may just be surprised at what you learn.

So, the Great What If. What is it? Well here it is in a nutshell... What if everything you thought you knew, everything you've been taught about religion, history, how our political system function, and the function of medications we happily take to get rid of our aches and pains were all lies? That's a pretty big question, but it's one worth asking in case you never have. It may never have occurred to you, it may not even matter, but I'm here to tell you that if what I've learned is true, we're all living a lie and we're the only ones who can put an end to it.

I'm going to try to be an concise as possible, but this will obviously be a long blog, so please bear with me.

CHRISTIANITY:
Ahh, the religion of my youth and one that is dear to millions of people around the world. It's all about a man, named Jesus Christ, who died on a cross and rose again three days later thus allowing man to be freed from the original sin of Adam and granting those who accept Jesus into their hearts while their hearts are still beating entrance into heaven and everlasting life, and condemning those who fail to do so to everlasting torment in the fires of hell.

I think that's a fair summary of what we know of Christianity, but what if this isn't a true story? What if this beloved person never existed, or what if the story is true but has been altered to a large degree? Would it matter? Would your relationship with God be any less if the story was different than you've been taught?
Well let me show you what I've found in my research that suggests that he may have existed, but lived a very different life.

The man we call Jesus Christ never went by either name. He was never called Jesus nor was he ever called the Christ, for neither name is Jewish, nor do they have anything to do with the Jewish Messiah. This is mentioned in an earlier blog post but I'm going over it again for completeness. Jesus is a translation into english of the Greek word Iesous. Ie = Hail and Sous = Zeus. So how is it that a religion that condemns polytheism and all the old religions has this man, the savior, bearing the name of the king of the gods of Greece? Something is amiss! Now Christ is the other name we refer to him as, but this too has been altered in a deceitful way. Christ the english translation for the Greek word Christos, which actually does mean Savior. However, Christos comes from the East (India I believe) where the word used was Krisna, who was a deity-savior in the belief system there. So the word was never attributed to the man we call Jesus Christ. In reality, he went by the name Yahshuwah, bearing in part the name of his father, Yahweh. Look it up people, it's out there if you want to find more information on it :)

Now the bigger question here is "How could this have happened? The Bible says his name is Jesus!" Well then we need to turn our attention to the Bible. What gives the Bible the right to be called an absolute authority? Well, the Bible does. We can say that God gives the book absolute authority, but the truth of the matter is that as far as evidence, only the Bible gives itself absolute authority, and this is a problem. The problem is that what we call the Bible has been altered to an unimaginable degree in the last 2000 years. Here's a few examples of WHO has changed the Bible:

Emperor Constantine:
After solidifying his position to gain complete control of the western portion of the empire in 312, the Emperor Constantine instituted the Edict of Milan, a "Magna Carta of religious liberty," which eventually changed the Empire’s religion and put Christianity on an equal footing with paganism. Almost overnight the position of the Christian Church was reversed from persecuted to legal and accepted. Constantine began to rely on the church for support, and it on him for protection. The Church and the Empire formed an alliance, which remains to this day. Very rapidly, the laws and policies of the Empire and the doctrine of the Church became one with Constantine as the interpreter of both law and policy. This was accomplished by eliminating hundreds of books thought to be against "Church" doctrine and watering down what remained by blending Christian beliefs and practice with long established Roman sanctioned pagan worship.
Constantine believed that the Church and the State should be as close as possible. Constantine tolerated pagan practices, keeping pagan gods on coins and retaining his pagan high priest title "Pontifex Maximus" in order to maintain popularity with his former subjects. In 330 he began an assault on paganism but used a clever method of persuasion to force people to follow the laws by combining pagan worship with Christianity. He made December 25th, the birthday of the pagan Unconquered Sun god, the official holiday now celebrated as the birthday of Jesus. He also replaced the weekly day of worship by making rest on Saturday unlawful and forcing the new religion to honor the first, not the seventh day, as a day of rest. As a way of defining his concept of the new universal religion he simply classified everything "Jewish" to be an abomination. Considering almost every aspect of the Bible is "Jewish" by association, every doctrinal biblical principle was changed or eliminated. After 337 Constantine increased his purging of the more obvious aspects of paganism.
Through a series of Universal Councils, he and his successors completely altered doctrine without regard to biblical edict, set up a church hierarchy of his own design, and established a set of beliefs and practices, which are the basis for all mainstream Bible-based churches. The separation of the Protestants and the Roman Church caused a physical split but the beliefs and practices established by Constantine remained almost identical. Very little has changed since the 4th century Councils changed the face of Christianity. An effective practice instituted was the purging of any book in the formerly accepted biblical works, over 80% of the total, that church leaders felt did not fit within their new concept of Christianity. The doctrines and practices remaining in the surviving books were effectively eradicated by simply changing them by replacing clear scripture with Church-sanctioned doctrine.
(from http://www.bibleufo.com/anomlostbooks.htm)

There were over 800 books in the original bible. 800 BOOKS!! Now one can look at this in two ways:
1. Emperor Constantine did us all a favor and got rid of the stuff that was irrelevant and did not convey the word of God.
2. Emperor Constantine did us all a disfavor by removing important aspects of what the Messiah said, did, and how he lived in order to portray just the aspects that worked to his advantage.

Pagan holidays are now Christian holidays. Christmas & Easter are the big two, which have pagan elements interwoven into the Christian view of the days, but in reality, until the pagan holidays were assimilated these days held no value whatsoever to the Church.

It's interesting to note that a lot of people are aware of this, but celebrate anyways. It could be tradition, it could be that people just want to cling to their beliefs regardless of the validity of them, but the fact of the matter is that this is all documented fact and is what it is.

Let's have a look at another key figure responsible for altering the Bible as we know it.

King James the First:
King James I, among his many other faults, preferred young boys to adult women. He was a flaming homosexual. His activities in that regard have been recorded in numerous books and public records; so much so, that there is no room for debate on the subject. The King was queer.

The very people who use the King James Bible today would be the first ones to throw such a deviant out of the congregations.

The depravity of King James I didn't end with sodomy. James enjoyed killing animals. He called it "hunting." Once he killed an animal, he would literally roll about in its blood. Some believe that he practiced bestiality while the animal lay dying.

James was a sadist as well as a sodomite: he enjoyed torturing people. While King of Scotland in 1591, he personally supervised the torture of poor wretches caught up in the witchcraft trials of Scotland. James would even suggest new tortures to the examiners. One "witch," Barbara Napier, was acquitted. That event so angered James that he wrote personally to the court on May 10, 1551, ordering a sentence of death, and had the jury called into custody. To make sure they understood their particular offense, the King himself presided at a new hearing - and was gracious enough to release them without punishment when they reversed their verdict.

History has it that James was also a great coward. On January 7, 1591, the king was in Edinburgh and emerged from the toll booth. A retinue followed that included the Duke of Lennox and Lord Hume. They fell into an argument with the laird of Logie and pulled their swords. James looked behind, saw the steel flashing, and fled into the nearest refuge which turned out to be a skinner's booth. There to his shame, he "fouled his breeches in fear."

In short, King James I was the kind of despicable creature honorable men loathed, Christians would not associate with, and the Bible itself orders to be put to death (Leviticus 20:13). Knowing what King James was we can easily discern his motives.

James ascended the English throne in 1603. He wasted no time in ordering a new edition of the Bible in order to deny the common people the marginal notes they so valued in the Geneva Bible. That James I wasn't going to have any marginal notes to annoy him and lead English citizens away from what he wanted them to think is a matter of public record. In an account corrected with his own hand dated February 10, 1604, he ordained:

That a translation be made of the whole Bible, as consonant as can be to the original Hebrew and Greek, and this to be set out and printed without any marginal notes, and only to be used in all churches of England in time of divine service. James then set up rules that made it impossible for anyone involved in the project to make an honest translation, some of which follow:

1. The ordinary Bible read in the church, commonly called the Bishop's Bible to be followed and as little altered as the truth of the original will permit.

2. Or, since the common people preferred the Geneva Bible to the existing government publication, let's see if we can slip a superseding government publication onto their bookshelves, altered as little as possible.

3. The old Ecclesiastical words to be kept, viz. the word "church" not to be translated "congregation," etc.

4. That is, if a word should be translated a certain way, let's deliberately mis-translate it to make the people think God still belongs to the Anglican Church - exclusively.

5. No marginal notes at all to be affixed, but only for the explanation of the Hebrew or Greek words, which cannot without some circumlocution, so briefly and fitly be expressed in the text.
(from http://members.iimetro.com.au/~hubbca/bible101.htm#BIBLE%20101)

King James was not interested in the words of the Bible, for he did not live a life even remotely influenced by it at all. So if he wasn't interested in the words, then why did he bother having his own version made up? It obviously wasn't for the benefit of the people, for they had the Geneva bible that they loved. It was to eliminate the marginal notes which in some instances gave the people the notion that the king was not appointed by God, and this was an ideal that King James wanted to make sure his people had, because it gave him not only the authority of a king, but a divine authority as leader of the church as well. He was a power-hungry monster who had no problem messing with the Bible in order to achieve his goals.

There are many more who have altered the bible over the years, but what we're left with now is 66 books in the protestant bible. Out of 800 books depicting the way things were at that time, we have 66? Just an odd side note, but add one more 6 on there and you've got a number that many deem to be evil and of Satan.

Anyways, obviously there are many reasons to question the validity of the Bible, not because God is trying to deceive us, but because men who have the power to deceive us are taking full advantage of it throughout history.

HISTORY
But what really do we know about history? Obviously, if something as sacred as the Bible could be altered, how difficult could it be to change the history of a nation, or of the entire world for that matter?

We can see even today that if we really look hard we can find things that are going on in the world that no big media outlet is even touching. It just gets slipped under the rug and forgotten. "In this world we think we know the truth and understand, the meaning of what happens, but what we experience is sand." I wrote this in my poem "Greater Perspective" and it's pretty evident with what I've said so far that it's exactly how things are.

History as we know it is simply a set of lies that have been agreed upon. You'll find all sorts of information about it if you do a search on google for it. Napoleon Bonaparte is quoted as having said "History is a set of stories agreed upon." He may have been a cynic, but he was a man of power and coming from him it has a bit of credence. It is so easy to manipulate people as it stands, but when subterfuge and deceit creep in from behind, people don't even realize that the counter they are leaning on wasn't there before! It looks authentic, it very well could be, but we just don't know.

I won't go much further into this, because then I'm walking down an alley full of conspiracy theories that I don't want to touch on in this entry, but I wanted to touch on it so you'd be aware. You've heard "Don't believe everything you read," well that's some sage advice.

GOVERNMENT:
Whew, this one is a doozy and we all know it. We ALL know that the government lies to us, but we all similarly feel powerless to do anything about it. That's the way they want it to be, and the system that's been set up underneath the illusion ensures that's the way it remains. That's pretty direct isn't it? There is TONS of information out there about the secret government, the New World Order, the Illuminati.

I think we as a society have been conditioned to quickly dismiss talk of conspiracies, because we like to believe that none of that happens. We live in a world where we think what we see is what we get, but people from all over the world are screaming for someone to listen to their story about how their lives were changed by something external to this system, or even something far to the internal of it where we don't ever see. We live on the surface, knowing not what's beneath us nor above us, and we're complacent and blissfully ignorant to it.

I read somewhere that said if a conspiracy theory sounds too far out there to be true, then it probably is. We've been told there's no such thing as aliens, no such thing as magic, no such thing as faeries, no such thing as (fill in the blank) and we mindlessly believe this nonsense despite the overwhelming evidence that would tell us otherwise. For these instances, the powers that be (not divine) have seen to it to either play dumb or demonize certain ideals they don't want people awakening to.

Take magic for instance. Most people, when thinking of magic, think of the dark arts of Black Magic, which really isn't evil in itself. Similarly to a gun, it's not the gun that's evil, but the person wielding the gun decides it's purpose. Magic is the same way, but we're convinced that magic, if it ever existed, exists no longer. How could such a horrific lie perpetrate through the masses? The answer is Christianity. We're told that magic is evil by the Bible, and yet magic existed. Magic exists because God created it, and I don't recall it being condemned from the moment of Creation, but later on in reference in divination in order to predict the future. Here's the thing, magic exists, it's not good nor is it evil, it simply is what it is and our lack of knowledge of it prevents us from being able to protect ourselves against it or use it to enhance our lives.

There is so much more to this world than we realize, and by being ignorant to it all we allow the vicious cycle to continue until we're left with nothing. For instance, we're surrounded by electromagnetic radiation every single day. From power lines, computers, cell phones, radios, etc. and this radiation, like all radiation, is affecting us in ways we do not realize. The most obvious side-effects are that we feel more tired, lethargic, demotivated, and more prone to illness. We have the power, despite being surrounded by all this radiation, to counter it effectively and eliminate the effect it has on our minds and bodies, but if we aren't aware of it, we tend to blame it on something else, like a virus or bug that's going around.

PHARMACEUTICAL LIFESTYLE
This leads us to start taking medication. Medications are so tremendously bad for us! The medical community would have us believe otherwise, but it's all just a ploy by the big Pharmaceutical companies to reap profits, at the expense of our lives. They don't really care about our lives, because if you look it up you'll find all sorts of information on the Illuminati's Depopulation Agenda. Basically you'll find that this global elite wants to depopulate the earth down to around 500,000 million - 1 billion people, a much more manageable number. We just play along, taking their medications of artificial ingredients that more often than naught have no more effect than placebo, eating the food that contains far more artificial ingredients than healthy, natural ones, and breathing the air that they deliberately pollute. It's disgusting that we are so caught up in our lives and the petty drama that we don't even realize that our lives our being controlled, weakened, and robbed right away from us.

So, what if everything I've said is true, then what now? What do you do with this knowledge?

I'm not saying stop believing in God, I'm not saying there is no hope for us, I'm not saying that we should go on a rampage, but I am saying we need to open our eyes and see that there is more happening here than meets the eye.

There are many forces at work here, and I've mostly discussed the evil ones that make up the global elite, but there is a good side that is doing it's best to neutralize the works of these evil people. For example, the angels in charge of this world are the faeries, the elementals, the creatures of myth and legend, and while we've just about written them all off as fictional, the majority of them exist and are written about in almost every ancient culture in the world. You can choose not to believe in them, but that doesn't change the reality of their existence, just as if I didn't believe you exist, would it change the reality that you do? They are doing their part to purify the toxins in the air and in the earth, but unfortunately they are finite just like us, they just have a little more power over the area they've been charged with protecting. We, as humans, should learn that we have power too, we've just been brainwashed our entire lives to think that we're fragile, unimportant, and incapable of anything extraordinary. Those are the exact principles necessary to force someone into slave mentality, and I for one and tired of it. I'm tired of this game where we aren't taking a player role, but just a piece on the board. I refuse to be a pawn in this game, and so I'm doing what I know to do right now by telling you about what I've learned.

I will continue to research everything until there's either nothing left to uncover, or I am stopped forcefully. Don't take my word for it, though, go look for yourself if you don't believe what I've said.

We're at the end of an age, the Age of Iron, where only a quarter of the divine is left in tact and evil abounds over good three-fold. So is it any wonder that our world is wracked in all the tragedies that ail it? You be the judge.

Here are a few really good reads that I've found in my research that I really think you should read if you want to see things from a different perspective.

The Zeitgeist Movie (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

The Gospel of Judas

The Amazing Wisdom of JRR Tolkien

The Origin of Christianity

I said it before and I'll say it again: This is not meant to sway you away from your beliefs, but present to you information that you may never have considered before. My goal is to get you do to some critical thinking and break the cycle of blind acceptance. In a world that seems full of the blind leading the blind, who in the world knows where any of us are going?

Chemtrails: The Poison We Breathe

It's AMAZING how horrible things are happening everywhere and we just don't see it. We are ignorant and blind to what is happening to us as humans. I'm going to talk about this subject first: The Poison We Breathe, because it's fairly evident that despite the polluting we do knowingly (smoking, gasoline emissions, etc.) that make our air poisonous, it seems that's not enough for those in power. No one in the media talks about it but it happens everyday, Chemtrails. It's incredible. Now let's examine the difference between a Contrail (Condensation Trail) and a Chemtrail (Chemical Trail).



I'm sure you've seen those GIANT streaks of cloudy matter in the sky and just thought "Oh, it's plane exhaust" ... WRONGO! You can see in that video that plane exhaust (Contrails) dissipate almost IMMEDIATELY. And yet that nasty cloudy streak in the sky remains, why? because it's not water vapor, it's disgusting chemicals of who knows what that slowly fill our atmosphere and rain down upon us. Here's a clip I found where a weatherman actually tells it to us straight, sorta.



He says it's paper, but how does paper create clouds? These streaks expand and expand and expand. Yesterday the sky here in Oklahoma was filled with these nasty streaks and they slowly expanded until our clear morning sky with no clouds turned into this weird orangish mass of hazy clouds that just about filled the sky. I was pissed, but what can I do about it? I watched the planes spray that crap into our skies and no one thinks twice about it. UGH!





So, what's the answer to this? "......." that's been the answer up to this point.. do you care enough to change it?